after all this time?

last night,
i don't know why i dreamed about you again.

i was fully aware in my dream that you're already together with her
out of my consciousness, i just shamelessly dreamed about you

what does it mean?

i don't know.

we're in the same place, together with our friends
we're asked same questions by one person (i think he is a public figure)

and that public figure came to me and asked "what will you do after this?"
i said to him that i will starting a business? or something like that (i don't really remember)
and i said something else, that move the public figure's heart
and suddenly i got all of the attention (kinda weird tho)

after that there were an after party(?) or something like that.
you were there, with our friends (and her too)
i know that you were there, but i just passed and didn't try to talk with you
our friends (and everybody) thought that you and your girl is a perfect couple
because you look so happy and "okay" with her

but you were not.

idk i suddenly saw kinda "behind the scene" of your relationship with her.
you fight with her (when there were just two of you together)
you feel disappointed with her
and you just mocking and shouting to each other

you feel tired, and her too
and then silence just grabbed your last sigh

i was so confused
what happened?
why should i care about this

i just felt a deep sadness in my heart
why i still thinking that you could have more happy
without pretending that you are "okay" in front of everyone

and then
you approached me (on the day after)
you tried to talk with me
but i remained silent

i still
don't know why i did that
you just stared at me with pain in your eyes;
it feels like, you wanna talk and say something to me
but you can't

yeah,
i know, dream is a dream
nothing will happened after i wake up

but,
why you again?
after all this time?



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lacuptea