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rasanya gelap. perutku melilit. membayangkan ini-itu. rasanya hanya aku sendiri yang ngerasa 'bahagia'. rasanya aku pengen muntah. aku tau ini hal sepele. tapi gimana bisa aku nganggep ini sepele? dia pasti keinget terus. first, i just wondering. what was that code? i have a feeling, that code must be have a relation. to her. i dont wanna knowing the truth. but my natural side says no. i shall know. then i just look out. ha ha. i found it. my nightmare. that i couldn't escape from. decode. i felt so dumb. dumb. how can i so stupid. feeling this alone. i don't wanna think of it. but how come? my nightmare already came. i don't wanna give up that easy. its my fault. i've decode what i should don't know. its hurt. feels so poignant. God, please save me. this is a nightmare, isn't it? please wake me up. thats just a paltry thing. i will wake up. and forgot everything. yes, i will. may that just my mind. hope for m...